In the monsoon midnight, with my headphones on and heavy rain in the city, listening to slow music. Thinking about past and regretting the things I missed. My phone pings, text from the one I wanted! Talking for endless hours…. I so wanted to tell him what I feel for him… But there couldn’t stand a chance when I could talk to him about myself! About my feelings for him! We talked like lovers,I meant each and every word I said. But I doubt does he wants me too? Does he have any feelings for me? I didn’t know what the destiny planned for me, I just hoped for the better future.
My friend once asked me.. Who’s your crush? I hesitated to tell him, but so wanted to share with someone that i couldn’t resist myself from telling about him. “Why don’t you just tell him about what you feel for him?”, my friend said. “When you already know what is going to be the reply, then why should I tell him?”, I replied. And for one more time i was thinking about what my friend said… Why shouldn’t I tell him? What if it’s too late? …. Kept thinking about it all night!
2a.m, and still talking to him. He sent a picture of a girl asking me how she is? I replied normally with emojis, one cannot know how are you feeling on text. Was the best way to hide what i felt! Switched off my cell, sat alone… Again thinking what I did wrong?
Switched on my phone again, and there were so many texts from him, asking about where did I go? Why I went off? What happened? I had no answer to those questions. Was trying to slip that topic out of our conversation, And yes I did it! Losing one more chance to tell him!
Two days later, again endless talks at night… “We talk like lovers and we’re friends? Why?” He asked. “It must not probably be love, must be attraction?” I replied.
-“What should we do? Take one step forward or end uo messing things?
“I don’t wanna lose you I want you! ”
And in between these talks we owed us, each other. And suddenly, all the slow songs were about him, I could relate to all love posts.
Time flew, and we realized it wasn’t in our hands to make both of us love each other,But the choice of staying together was.❤